Five years of being single and here you come. The one who made me try something new. My first kiss. My first real hug. And yes it felt good. Just yesterday we were all lovey dovey and now it''s all over just like that.
I dont know whether I was in love with you or in love with you. I also didn''t know if you really wanted a relationship or just relations. And this is why I wanted to take life slow. Something you opposed. You wanted sex and romance within a month. The only month we belonged together. Before we came to an end. You were asking for so much in so little time. And I was dealing with so much that I was nearly insane. Your love for me was so strong to the point that I was afraid to make a mistake. Afraid to hug you. Or kiss you. Afraid to sit wrong or walk wrong. Or even say the wrong thing. And now I wished I would have kissed you more and let you hold me just a little bit longer.
You knew how to drive me up the wall. Yet you knew all the right things to say. You were always on my mind; my constant thought. And for some reason, I couldn''t resist you. I wanted you in ways you couldn''t imagine but my body wouldn''t let that thought come through. I''m thinking now that my gut instinct tried to keep me from doing things I would end of regretting.
I hope that Im constantly on your mind. And that Im first thought of the day & the last when you go to sleep. I hope when youre hanging out with your homies, you''re just feigning for my voice and hoping that Id call you. May your dreams be taken over by me. I know that I made a difference in you that no other girl has made baby and for that, I know Ive made a mark. A tattoo on your heart.
So now these words are just thoughts to get you out of my system quicker. You told me to move on & I will do just that. I wont forget you. Your brown eyes & redneck accent. I wont forget the day you didnt see that car coming towards you the first time we met, and you didn''t see it because you were too busy staring into my eyes. Or the day that I walked into a bus headlight trying to read a text message you sent me. I love you. Always will.
But here I leave the thoughts of you. On this single diary entry. R.i.P. to what we had.
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